Tuesday, October 23, 2012

So Broken...

Yesterday totally sucked.

I woke up with 4 dislocated ribs (at the spine) and they stayed wobbly and not-quite-right all day. This caused some wonderful muscle spasms throughout the day. After work, I decided to go grocery shopping, because we've been out of food for about 2 weeks.

I got to Safeway, and parked in one of those wonderful handicapped stalls (because I finally am disabled ENOUGH to warrant one-at least temporarily), and hobbled to the front door to grab a shopping cart. I used the shopping cart as a walker, because my left hip has been feeling like there's a knife stuck into it since Saturday. I made the trip through the necessary aisles to get everything on my list. Then I went to the front to pay for everything.

This is where everything fell apart. There were about 40 or 50 people in line to pay for groceries, and only ONE TILL OPEN. So I stood in line... For 35 minutes. Now, most of the time, this wouldn't be a huge deal for me, but as I said, hip, ribs and back spasms had been haunting me all day. After about 3 minutes in line, I had a white-knuckled grip on the shopping cart, and I was shaking visibly. After another few minutes, my back started spasming really hard, and I looked like I was having partial seizures. Then my chin started quivering... Preparing for the tears.

By the time I got to the check-out, I was ready to lose consciousness from the pain in my back, and the low blood pressure. I was ready to abandon my shopping, and just go home... I felt defeated.

I paid for the food, stumble-shuffled to the car, and cried all the way home.

I used my absolute last ounce of energy to get the groceries into the house, and half-crawled up the 6 steps to my comfy chair.

By the time I was done, I wasn't even hungry... At least not hungry enough to tackle those damned 6 stairs...


Heidi said...

So sorry life has to be so difficult. I have EDS as well and I know how it can make everyday activities for everyone else monumental for us. You are strong to do what you do, and to share it.

Anonymous said...

I'm a long time lurker, congrats on your pregnancy! I've had two pregnancies with EDS and it is hard!! I highly recommend an SI belt instead of a pregnancy support belt, a firm mattress to sleep on and good posture. Hoping things don't get too unbearable for you

BubbleGirl said...

Thank you for the comments!

I finally bit the bullet and sent my hubby to buy a 6" memory foam mattress topper yesterday. Slept on it last night, and I felt so much better this morning. There weren't any pressure points, and there were fewer dislocations. Now I just need to figure out a new pillow.